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08:04am 29/09/2005
 
mood: ecstatic
music: None
Yo and hello my fellow hooligans. GUESS WHAT. MY SISTERIS PREGNANT!!! ONE MONTH NOW! YAAAAY YAAAAY YAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ok....done now....all that was needed to say.		  
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02:41pm 21/09/2005
  Yo hoes, havent updated in a while. Been busy with school, the whole shabang. I gotta quote im stealing from grannyness





"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love." - Neil Gaiman		  
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Ohhh   
10:27am 13/09/2005
  Ohhhhhh school sucks crack monkies. Havent updated in a whole load....neither has dana....update dana...update. Im booored boooored booored. I need a cookie. I need to move away...to texas. Blah blah...nothing to say..too lazy...  
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At school   
01:04pm 02/09/2005
 
mood: crappy
music: Loud people talking
Hi everyone, im here updating from school. Im bored...teacher lets us on, so here i am, writing. Im boooored. Oh i am soooo mad at dana.....she totally gets me into trouble all the time it makes me maaaaaad maaaaaad. UUUUGH. WTF. Alright well im done now.......TELL ME ABOUT THAT GUY ANITA TELL ME.		  
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Hola   
01:57pm 24/08/2005
 
mood: crappy
music: the faint-worked up so sexual
Hola...just bored. I wrote a song yesterday, i really like it. Tis emo though. sooo bored

Nothing much to say.....
Well....
DA...\
DE...
DA...

School starts soon FINALLY.

Well, adios amigos. Im in writers block right now i guess...although..there IS some stuff i can say...but i think i'll save it.


I can talk some though.

You know it is so funny. Its hard to let yourself fall in love with someone....and it really is harder to have that same person fall for you.

Kinda like....sometimes you just should drop who it is you want....and realize who it is you NEED. I think i need to find outwho it is i need, because obviously who i want....isnt going to feel the same, no matter what i do or how much i care. Oh well, its life ay?		  
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Hola   
01:46pm 22/08/2005
 
mood: bouncy
music: the faint-worked up so sexual
Im just sitting here bored. THANK YOU GOD. YOU LISTEN TO MY PRAYERS. MY MOM GOTS A JOB!!! lol...well im here listenin to worked up so sexual....lyrics are so odd and funny....

I see you work at night,
and are you sexually amused?
What's it like to have a room of guys encircling you?
How she moves, and how she walks.
They all patiently await
while the heat from in their pockets
could burn marks into their legs.
Without your needs and your support
she'd have a job the same as ours -
nothing daring. Would she miss a job that's sexual?
In every city there are dozens of these clubs
where men can go.
Some people need a little challenge to their fantasies at home.
There's a little tiny number on a fold of matches,
the ink drips from a little dancer's pen.
Everybody wants that fold of matches to reinflate their confidence.
Hey, it is a job, it pays a lot. Is it disservicing someone?
And is it good to get these men worked up so sexual?
Older dancers gag at what new talent seems to mean.
Smaller tits and younger limbs can cause a fit of rivalry.

HAHA..love this song. This just mingt become SOMEONES theme song. *COUGH COUGH* Not saying who...BUT YOU'LL KNOW WHO WHEN I SAY THIS GRANNY, HA. (no not you or me or cameron) lol... Alright. well im done. Not much to say. School starts soon.		  
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hello out there   
02:08pm 21/08/2005
 
mood: crazy
music: Emery-In a lose lose situation
Im back from florida, finally got ahold of the computer. Whats up peoples?? Me...im just ok i guess. SOrta mad, sorta worried, sorta sad, sorta happy, sorta emotionally challenged pretty much. I havent got much to say. I could ramble, but i refuse not to. Alrighty-o, see you guys or well....talk to you guys laterz.






-THE HASHYNESS-

"I think your high on oxygen."-My stupid ass said that.....OOPS.		  
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mhm   
12:33am 04/08/2005
  My First annual hashy emo night is almost over. I just finished watching garden state and the notebook, and ate some ben and jerrys, and last but not least, im going to write poems, and listen to emery. My emo night...tis grand.  
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EMERY   
08:03pm 02/08/2005
 
mood: chipper
music: Emery cd
I just got the new emery cd The Question...OMG ITS ONE OF THE BEST CDS EVER!!! Whoever in the band writes rhe lyrics is probably one of the BEST FRICKIN LYRICISTS EVER!!! Good lyrics man....EXAMPLE!!! " just between the rock and the paper the scissors cut deeper." OMG I LOVE THEM!!! " All the words from our mouths, and the alphabet isnt big enough to spell it out." LOVE IT!!		  
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yupo   
02:23pm 29/07/2005
 
mood: discontent
music: the faint-worked up so sexual
sittin here doing nothing. So bored. Finished writing my letters to everyone. Which remind sme io need to call everyone and ask for their address. Man.......love stinks like a dirty crack whore. (HOEDOWN)		  
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bored..poemness   
02:18pm 28/07/2005
 
mood: crappy
music: TBS
My silent tears bleed along to the beat of your heart
My heart, yearning to beat as yours
Feelings tear at my soul and rip me apart
I try to hide it, but with each second of our silence it becomes unbearable
Needing to say the 3 words that sear through my emotions and burn me alive
Falling
Down a hole of my passion
Dreaming
That you feel the same
Hoping
That you will see it
Knowing
That you wont
I am not that happy ending
I am far from it
I will never be the one who saves you from the night
I feel i had a glimpse of you
My heart calls for it all back
Even the deepest lies
You will only see others, and look right through me
I will watch you from my far point of exsistence and drown in your sympathy
All i truly want is you
The way you make me need you
As if i depend on you
As if you are the air that i breathe
As if your blood is what i need to survive, to pump through my veins
Like a vampire
And just like a vampire my love for you is...........immortal





Yep....thats all...interesting ay savys?		  
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GOODNESS   
11:33am 25/07/2005
 
mood: blah
music: hopeless love-daphne loves derby
Goodness....i listened to that daphne loves derby band and now im obsessed with a song.....tis called Hopeless Love (ha...aha)

200 miles away from home.
200 miles beneath this lake is where my heart belongs,
but you don't care at all, at all.

You wouldn't even smile if I were screaming
as the water filled my lungs, my lungs.

You demand to be chased for your love.
My desperate heart is far too weak to run for you this long.
But you don't care at all.
There's nothing I can do to draw you close to me.

Can you take this silence like a pill so I can breathe again?
I've been trying to ignore the best parts of you.
I'm still hoping that I'll be with you somehow, somehow.

Please be home tonight.
I'll die if I don't get a chance to make this just right.
I'm sorry but I can't forget about the way I feel every time you're here.

What would it take for me to be with you?
I swear I'd rip my heart out if you said you'd be impressed.
Please be impressed.

I'd go so far to please you
but I bet you wouldn't care at all, at all.

Hopeless love, please leave me.
This broken heart is far to weak to run for you this long.
Why don't you care at all?

I'm dying for a place in your heart.

Can you take this silence like a pill so I can breathe again?
I've been trying to ignore the best parts of you.
I'm still hoping that I'll be with you somehow, somehow.

Please be home tonight.
I'll die if I don't get a chance to make this just right.
I'm sorry but I can't forget
about the way I feel every time you're here.

Hopeless love, why did you carve your home in me?
This broken heart is too weak to hold your weight.
And now I regret the day we met.
And help me forget your name.

And those are the lyrics. GRANNY WHERE IS MY VIDEO!! WHORE!! I wanna see that new mcr video too...anywhooooo. Anita you still havent answered the questions!!!Im bored....sooo bored....Man another WEIRD FRICKIN DREAM AGAIN....too bad dreams dont come true though...		  
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Im a updatin   
02:21pm 24/07/2005
 
music: THE TUNE OF THE MUSIC IN MY HEAD
OHIO is AWESOME. I saw stuff each of my friends would like!!! Its beautiful here. its actually GREEN. Not crispy and brown..but GREEN.I hope the people here are just as good...I MISS EVERYONE SO FRICKIN MUCH it isnt gonna be the same without you guys......		  
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I am at grannys   
04:13pm 07/07/2005
 
mood: chipper
music: The music in my head
I am at grannys weee. This is now officially my last journal entry. YAAAAAAY WOOT WOOT. I move tommorow, how fun. FUN I SAY FUN. I sorta cant wait to leave since nits been taking forever and a day. Well michelle and kyla and.....anita are here. So im gonna go now. Until next time i meet my livejournal again, ADIOS.












"If i werent a lesbian id kiss you." QUOTE OF THE DAY.		  
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LIES   
07:49pm 04/07/2005
 
mood: chipper
music: Pull harder on the strings of your martyr-trivium
LIES. I shall update once more. 2 hours until computer is unpluged for good. THANK GOD. FINALLY. lol. Well today i FINALLY cut the ties with someone. TOOK ME LONG ENOUGH to realize it was the only good option left between us. Well...time is running out...better go. BYE. LAST ENTRY FOR EVER....not really...BUT CLOSE TO IT!		  
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Hi   
08:33pm 29/06/2005
 
mood: drained
music: atom doesnt lie-greeley estates
Wow..this move is almost here. I CANT WAIT. Im really dyin over here...Thats all i had to say.		  
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*sigh*   
10:29pm 28/06/2005
 
mood: contemplative
music: through the pain-a5a
Now this retarded thing has got me thinking. GODDAMN. Where did my friendships go? It just makes me think......one minute youve got the best thing in the world with someone and then....it just gets torn away. Its like...a flash. I swear 2 years ago i could say i had the bestest friend in the world, and just 2 years later i can say..i dont even HAVE a best friend. Its sad....I mean....i understand, people move on. People find others that can fill in the space. But what happens when your not ready to be filed in? What happens when you already have? What happens when that space is empty for you....and you have noone to fill it with? Its like this highschool year....everything was just torn away. Ohters just came around and took it....its like....i have a missing spot now. Well...i guess you just cant rely too much on people now can you? You cant rely on words you say, like you'll be together forever and a week.....Because it doesnt work that way. One minute your going to grow old together, and the next the idea of growing old together has grown old....and your left with that empty space...again and again....




-HASHY-		  
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The sadness Returns part deux   
06:50pm 26/06/2005
 
mood: crushed
music: Existentialism on a prom night
SO....the warped tour was great. but that greatness has been flushed away. My Old best friend dana victoria day from tampa florida killed herself. I had a horrible feeling this morning, and when i got the call....it was just like.,..wow...i cried..and cried...and you dont know who or what youve got till its gone. God if only she just...why would she do this to everyone...we loved her...we cared...if only...if only i got to say goodbye to her...if only i had told her i loved her before this happened. If only...


So many emotions floating around...i dont think i can speak more.


But i guess i will do one thing. I will say i love you to everyone i love over there in florida....

Daniel, josh, chantzy, luis, rachel. You guys have always been there for me. Say goodbye to her for me you guys. You guys know exactly what i want you to drop for her from me. I love you guys so much, thanks for being around. STAY around...



SCRATCH this


She didnt kill herself..but she did attempt it. AND LUCKILY SHE IS STILL ON THIS EARTH. God if i see her...i will STARNGLE HER. AND I WILL STRANGLE DANIEL FOR TELLING ME SHE KILELD HERSELF.		  
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Song...A PERFECT SONG.   
05:45pm 20/06/2005
 
mood: contemplative
music: The juliana theory
You're the words that come out easy,
And I am speechless at best.
Your star it seems to shine above the rest.
You're the face before the cameras,
The smile i'd like to earn.
The closest thing to perfect,
In a love that could burn
You're the beauty that is deeper,
Than eyes can merely see.
The closest thing to perfect.
But the farthest thing from me.


I'd love to be,
The shoulder that you cry on.
I'd love to be,
The friend you call when things are great.

You're the dream that hasn't ended,
And I'm still anxious for rest.
Your words they seem to hang above my head.
You're the bud before the flower,
Unfurls into full bloom.
Captivating beauty,
But it maybe all too soon.
You're the song that writes a story,
But leaves a lot to read.
The closest thing to perfect,
But the farthest thing from me.



And I really deserve a chance to,
Sit across the table,
And tell you that I think you're wonderful.
And I think you're something special.
I guess this is my only chance to,
Say I wish you loved me
Cause i love you
So watch me float along this room
Your beautiful
The closest thing to perfect
But the farthest thing from me		  
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The juliana theory   
05:36pm 20/06/2005
 
mood: EMOness
music: The juliana theory
Im now obsessed with the juliana theories one song....



IF I TOLD YOU THIS WAS KILLING ME, WOULD YOU STOP?
by The juliana Theory
watch your mouth hold your toungue boy because you're running out of breath running out of time before every careless word that you utter renders you utterly useless now you're drowning in your own saliva trying to speak yourself to the top of your hardcore world well keep on talking just keep on rambling you've got your mouth full now listen here's the pleasant part you and i we fell apart why don't you make up your mind shut your mouth burn your bridges throw your words like an attack stab me in the wait a second what's that i just heard nevermind it's obviously useless now you're standing on your soapbox yelling from the rooftops everything you say is a lie now listen here's the clever one who speaks before his thoughts are done why can't you make up your mind watch your mouth hold your tongue some things are better left unsaid now i hope you're pleased you let your pride stand tall it danced within your words right before your fall why don't you say that to my face if i told you this was killing me would you stop?



Yes obsessed with the emoness right now. Its lifitng ma spirits. EMO HELPS! EMO IS LOVE! HELP SUPPORT EMO IN YOUR COMMUNITY! ACT NOW!		  
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